another part of me

Assalammualaikum. Its been a long time isnt ? i just need somekind of free spaces to relaxed my heart. Its really hurt this few weeks a lot of bullshit has going on around me and im sick of it. As i think that things get so unfair, and I dont want to say that, “we are” history. And i dont want to say that “you” are my history or my past.

Cause guys, wouldnt know what hurts girls the most. I really doesnt have the stregth to met you, to give all of your things back. I really dont, maybe allah didnt let me to do so. So just give me sometimes and i’ll give you back all your things that with me. And you know what was history agian was ? this relationship, it just a wonderfull history to be told to my children. And maybe would be the most pain memories to told them, for me. *sigh* the fact that i lose cause i love you, probably wont make you care at all. *no* *yes it is* i just cant deny the fact that im started to miss you, it kills me! Dont you know those ? I dont know weather you were okay, but i hope so.

Nevermind, its happends and i just cant do anything about it. Who cares lah ? *im care*. And when i told you that another part of my heart was dead, you have to belive it that yes, it was. Basically, im just look fine but the reality was i wasnt. Why ? yes, cause im not even fucking moved on ! bitch me. I always do remeber the game that we used to play at mamak , hummm i used to smile alone when i play it with my family. When everyone asked me you know what i just cant answerd them. Cause... i cant....cause it hurts maybe, it does.