breathe

assalamualaikum. well today im going to talk about a obsession that always end with a frustation.
 I feared and worry, to take the next step. I feared to hope and really love. if I too love, you understood what was happened before this? do you think, I am strong?-I did?
Ironically, I was so think about this-you know lah, love, strength, permanent, loyalty, problem-ah all of that! who knows what I fear.
 I didnt know, instead of experience teach me ,but frightened me to come and repeat it back.sometimes I'm too scared until hurting my own self by thinking negetive. I was very stupid, obvious, appear .. but, I was not even realize. how can i not afraid of- How to, if that is a shadow? a faint shadow that always come to haunt me. you- no answer?-not as that. I'd know, I was- myself do not answer, but I still have many questions.-I was always write a letter for myself. I sat alone, and think again. instead of, there's no friends. I was like this-all I want that you must understand. you must know-that I'm thinking. instead of empty. but who knows.
bye take a good care about-yourself??? not others